I want to kiss her.
Not because I want to feel the softness of her fair lips or the warmth of her breath as she exhales against me.
I want to kiss her because I can’t think of any other way to fully express the beauty that she is. I want her to know that I see her as perfect. That she is perfect."
I don’t even know what emotion I’m feeling right now. I’m stuck somewhere between fear, sadness, and complete emptiness. This is the first night in the last 17+ months that I have to spend alone with no choice in the matter. My boyfriend is “going through something” and when that happens in the Army, it means you have to go to the hospital and you’re not allowed in your own home without supervision until they deem you fit. So I got to see him briefly before they took him away and no one can tell me when I will get to see him again.
I hate not knowing what’s going on. I hate not being in control. I am worrying myself completely sick at the moment. Help….